somethings are better left unsaid

people are very complicated and what we say to one another is the same. when someone explains changes in their life, you are left to interpret the details. what if there is nothing to figure out. why does one over think things.
its crazy.

rough night

something must be in the air around here. for last night there were sirens, i watched an undercover arrest go down. and through out the late evening i heard shouting, arguing and the chatter of things to come. i wonder if it is because winter is on its way and summer rivalries are unsettled yet. either way time is still passing, everyone is growing old and life is moving us all closer to out end.

if i ever live on the east coast again it will have to be in the middle of nowhere in the hills where i can hear peace and quiet all the while taking in the crisp cool fall air. the last place i want to be is a city, this city. the amount of people is so overwhelming.

there's no place like home

i understand that coming here to NYC for school was an opportunity that i had to take, but upon further exploration and experience there is no place like home. i am a California girl all the way. i love my car. i love the freedom is allows. the ability to go any where at any time.
school has totally drained the life out of me. i was not made for education institutes, life is much better and successful dealing with meeting people and growing from there. that is the only way i like to advance through the personal interaction with others.
last but not least WALKING, you walk everywhere so when one thing happens to your feet the rest is downhill if you dont get it looked at right away. this is what has happened to me and here is an image of my current state of life.

working hard. hardly working

in these past few months i have come to realize that i love to build things and or make things with my hands. ie wood paneling for my woodburnings, book making, painting, tiling, gardening, and much much more. from now on i have something to do. and have a great time doing it. currently i bookmaking has been a blast and the more i work at it the better i feel. its amazing. things are moving forward

always and forever

work is impossible to make when you are lost. when things are too much and you need a break. there is no way that i can see right now to create work. things have become so complicated and troublesome that i cant wait for a release.