forever

school has been so stressful that i havent even had time to think. it is almost over and i dont think things have gotten done. but i have learned a lot not just about photography but about life issues in general.

life, love and lounging are things that dont exist in my world

moving

we are almost there. moving day. to brooklyn where our tree house is located.

thoughts

einstien- dont think of the future, it will come soon enough

new yorks changing

what a girl wants

more time in the day. for all the small things that escape you in the mix of all the chaos.

items to go

there are so many ideas that feed the brain when you go the chelsea galleries. im, overwhelmed by the thought process of artists these days. they are intelligent and full of life. life is going to be a tough one in the future

life as an artist

is full of "friends" but at the same time a solitary adventure.

documentary

"in art there is the fact of failure, and the fact of partial success."
lukacs brecht

hard times

and fast times. thats life here. i totally need a vacation. but everything is going great

when it rains it pours

its really like that here. when the rain starts falling it doesnt want to stop. that and its humid. i dont know how the east coast does it.

i love learning.

the time comes

the time comes when you just have to suck it up and get back to work. when that happens you better work hard and do a great job so it looks like you are great all the time.

its happens everyday

i look both ways before crossing the street. it makes life safer for yourself and those around you

persistence

for one thing it pays off in the long run. and it makes you tough

i need more books

BASICALLY i need more books. like the ones that i left back home.

Susan Sontag

On photography:

America, that surreal country, is full of found objects. Our junk has become art. Our junk has become history.

this is one of the greatest things i have ever read. by susan sontag

learning

learning hurts the brain. just a little like when it comes to reading and reading. you know that kind of stuff. today i went over how to make a web site thingy, its getting more and more interesting by the day. i hope to have that up and running by the end of the semester.

guess what....i didnt get hurt today I WIN,

nerdsville

I am the biggest nerd that i know. this week as gone extremely well for me...barnes and nobles called i got their transfer, the photo lab here accepted my application. and my status change from 2nd year to 3rd year and they added 6 more credits to my check list. so far thats great and im excited.

i was talking to the studio manager at school about how i want to build a 8x10 camera and 2 panorama cameras this semester. and all the stuff that i find interesting in the lab. along with fixing and modifying camera equipment and he laughed because the NERD in me came out.

i love being a photoGEEk

normal-ish

who really is normal, i feel very strongly that i am normal and everyone else around me is a little bit off the beaten path. i am polite and well mannered, i chew with my mouth closed and i take a shower every day. those are just the simplest of normal-ish.

for the past few days i have been trying to get school taken care of. moving classes around and thinking way to hard about what i should do next. the sad thing about this process is meeting with some of my class mates. they are all clearly really young. i feel like an old hag with all these young hip kids. has my time come and passed? or an i here as a mover. we;ll see. i want to move the world and take it my way, the normal-ish way.

coney island

today i went to class and realized that im old. well at least 4 years older then the kids i have around me. no fun.
so to make myself feel younger i ventured to coney island by myself. how independent is that.... well i walked around and took pictures, i was able to get images with hardly anyone in the shot. that was awesome. total landscapes.

there was a man in a group of people that was coxed to take out his member to show to his group of friends,. i heard everything that was going on but luckily was too far to see anything. thank god.

karmina and i made a new friend he;s from jersey, and does film. art friends woohoo. we make the best of friends. ideas ideas

clarity

i want to sit here and let the sun and sky talk to me all day long. i simple place.

jungle gyms

today i realized that im out of shape. i tried to do a pull up and fell off the bars. this older woman laughed.

and again im learning not to talk to strangers because they are scary.

sweetness

i miss the open sky

insanity meets clarity

i found clarity and it knows a lot about cameras. this city has a lot of construction works and they all seem to love california girls with red hair. every where karmina and i went today was filled with lovely guys talking to us about hair styles and good times.

things are great out here, the weather is even getting better.
today i bought a light meter and his name is cyclops he is the most beautiful gadget i won, a long with mr T and the silver bullet.

karmina, kershnick and myself have proclaimed a coffee shop in brooklyn as our art talk center and drink fest. this is going to be the place that our ideas will flow freeing.

do you know where im going

B and H here i come

artists

they are the craziest people on this earth ever more then the crazies in those hospitals. you know what i mean. the mass majority that i encounter try way to hard to be too cool or artsy that it pains me to be around these people.

why be someone else when you cant even be yourself.....specials